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another bump
1/10. I had to break up with the love of my life, now sheās seeing a huge muscular guy and I canāt build muscle no matter how hard I try. I have pains, canāt get an erection even with high dose viagra, canāt sleep well. I used to be very good looking, random people on the street used to ask me if I was an actor or something. Now my face looks thin and sickly. I had golden blond hair, now itās a shitty green-grayish colour, and I still lose hair. I still expect a miracle but the chances are that Iāll end my life at some point this yearā¦
maybe 2 out of 10 worst days probably a 0.
What symptoms are you dealing with?
Low energy, low well being, loss of motivation and when I eat the wrong foods. Anything estrogenic I lose all emotions. This is very hard to live with. Low appetite. Can not gain muscle. Can not get excited. 0 libido. Fat on hips. No more hairloss. Also now sleep problems.
I did a chest xray 4 months ago and got some more probs from that which I can not really blame directly on fin. But fin caused me to get it.
The positive of this is that I fixed most problems for days with either testosterone or antiestrogens but the benefits do not last.
I Got PFS AT age 17 in 2012.
Quality of life was prob 60%. Luckily i had no depression just 0 emotions. Felt like a psychopath. I then injured my back and thanks to pfs it didnāt heal so i was unable to sit in chairs due to pain.
Life was 50% then. Worked 70hr weeks telling people im assexual. Fell in love with trance music. Discovered Entheogens and life was 80%
Then 4 months ago i made the biggest mistake of my life and played with pharmaceutical anti estrogens desperately trying to heal from pfs so i could enjoy my 21st birthday. I crashed and never recovered and have 1000 new side effects.
Worst sides from pfs: Low libido / apathy
Current worst sides: severe connective tissue degeneration leading to requiring care everyday due to severe disability. Cervical spine instability leading to compression of brain stem causing tingling all over face and limbs with involentary jerks. Dementia grade brain fog
PFS is the worst thing ever
0/10 full of shit - side that bothers me the most having all of these persistent/permanent sexual sides. P.S. fuck the Belgravia Centre and fuck Merck
Belgravia centre fucked me over too, kept asking why I donāt just go on propecia when their stupid cream failed to work.