I’m so sorry to hear things aren’t going well @fearsomepigeon. I wish I had some more constructive advice than “hang in there”, but sometimes you just need to put one foot in front of the other.
You are incredibly brave making it this far, and even if you don’t feel that anymore, no-one can take that away from you.
We now have an amazing research opportunity on the table (Out of the wilderness: New scientific research and major awareness campaign). An awareness campaign which is getting good cut-through. Keep the faith and keep going as long as you can.
Take care of yourself.