Well, I experienced something weird.
Yesterday, I didn’t take my morning dose of caffeine, skipped the L-Dopa, vitamin A and D, and despite having had a good night of sleep, I had heavy brain fog and confusion all day. I couldn’t work at all.
I believe it’s because I’m addicted to caffeine, or my body integrated it somehow in this new balance I’m in. I don’t know.
Came bedtime, I prepared my evening pills and my morning pills, and being still confused and brain fogged I gulped down some pills only to find out I just took the morning ones: 5-HTP, L-Dopa, L-Tyrosine, Calcium, DHEA, Pregnenolone, B3, B6, Biotin, Pine Pollen, Tribulus Terrestris; right before bedtime !
I wasn’t sure what to do, if I should force myself to vomit, but I decided to take the evening pills on top: Melatonin, Clonazepam, Hydroxyzine, lavender oil, Valerian, Passion Flower, Lemon Balm, Jujube extract.
(I’m cycling sleeping herbs, never take the same ones two nights in a row. Needless to say I’ve got a whole bunch of other herbs in reserve)
I was sure I was heading for a hell of a night, but as I did my evening meditation, I was particularly focused and clear minded. I went to bed at 9:30, slept normally; not waking up before 4am which is usual for me and I got up at 8am, fully rested. Looks like I moved a lot during the night, the blankets were all messed up. I didn’t take the morning pills (as I had none prepared) but was happy and joyful all morning.
Later in the early afternoon, I was hit with heavy depression, just out of the blue and for no reason. It was like being bi-polar: going from joyful to depressive in just an hour.
I took 5-HTP, L-Dopa, L-Tyrosine again as I always take it morning and afternoon and it’s now 7:30pm and I’m feeling normal again. A little joyful I might say.
If I learned something about this, it’s that taking all the supplements I’m taking, being on a strict almost zero carbs diet and having a tight sleep schedule is like being on life support. The moment I change the recipe and try new products, things go wrong. If I stay disciplined and change nothing, I have almost no symptoms: I only wake up a few times after 4-6 hours of sleep, toss around a bit and fall asleep again. I wake up rested and have productive days.
I think I will stick to my routine for now. I’m tired of trying new things and getting all messed up. Plus you never know when you’ll take the one thing you should never have taken, and then you’re worst than ever and it’s permanent. I’ve read more than one story like that.
14 months ago I could barely walk and stand up, had anxiety to die for, was sexually and mentally disabled and now, even if I don’t take the supplements and cheat on my diet with pizza and shit, the only thing I get is more insomnia (which brings brain fog). The other symptoms are gone. I’m still sick but I think it’s undeniable that my body partly cured itself. I think time is on our side and we shouldn’t mess around too much as it can cause more damage than good.