My horrible experience

I am very passionate about basketball as well. This was taken from me by this disease. I play about once per month now. I am a shadow of my former self now. I played in high school and a very short time in college. I was playing competitively with guys 10 years younger than me and was always one of the better guys in any pick up game I’d play in. I played 3-5 times per week, almost everyday on my lunch break. Now, it is a struggle to play at all. I can play in one or maybe two games in a row. I either feel good in the days following playing because of the increased metabolism or I feel completely horrible. It almost sends the body into a shock sometimes. My back, knees etc. will ache very badly in the following days. So, I shy away from it now because its a crapshoot in terms of if I’ll feel better or completely worse following the games.

On a positive note. I have lifted heavy weights the past 3 days (squats yesterday). I have been taking zinc piclinate and chinese bitters (which I just ordered). I’m proud to report that I had a ‘piss hardon’ last night. I actually woke up in the middle of the night to piss and had a solid hard on, making it almost impossible to piss. That happens once a year now it seems like. Hopefully this reoccurs more now.

I’m 3.5 years post crash right now. I am still suffering, but have made solid improvement especially over the past year. I did get married and even managed to conceive a child. I now have a six month old little girl. So there ended up being hope for me after this whole mess. I don’t have much of a problem having sex with my wife. I don’t have a problem getting or maintaining an erection now even though it was near impossible at the start of this mess. Libido is still not there. I have periods of feeling near 100 percent and they are lasting in longer increments, but I still do go back into extended bad periods. There is still no mental connection between seeing a beautiful woman and feeling lustful to the point of erection etc. I wonder if this will ever come back. Physically I’m still very challenged, my athletic ability and stamina is not near what is used to be. Finally, my body is not near what it used to be or what I know it should be. My weight has recently come down to what I know it should be even though I haven’t not changed a thing with diet. I was ten pounds over my standard weight which now is back to equilibrium. I still struggle with bloating and muscletone. I was ripped before this. Now I’m a little flabby. Keep up the good fight.

Man this is the best news here on the forum! So happy for your little girl. You have fought a lot and the result is this. Keep us updated

That’s great to hear, proscarred. Our stories are very similar, right down to libido, marriage and baby girl.

I hope you continue to improve.

There is no recovery from this. I’m sorry to say. I am now 5.5 years post crash and I never recovered. Very sad. I was somehow able to conceive 2 children in this timeframe with almost zero libido. My wife and I averaged sex maybe once per month and somehow got pregnant twice without planning. Must be Devine intervention.

Shave once per week
Balls half original size
Muscle tone gone
Dry eyes
Dry skin
Calf hair less and less
Zero libido

Living the dream

don’t give up damn man, your story was one of the few which really gave me strength to go on

Yeah I followed your story, but I’m almost recovered. I want sex all the time, my body is now warm, I am no longer bloated; I’m getting mean and strong. Man, did you go through some depression or some emotional issue they may have reverted all the progress you were making?