I think about giving up

General Discussion
#1

After 3 years of just fighting my ED, which you can see explained in this forum, I am close to giving up on life.

I am about to start my second degree (after finishing my B.ofSc), but it feels totaly worthless. Family and sex seems impossible to ever reach, as I cant get my fucking dick up. Not even caverject - nothing.

The funny thing is I have no depression, luckily I wont get depressive at all cause due my chemical ratio in my brain, but I consider suicide losely, as it is the last possibility to self-determine anything.

I am 21 years old and lost all my hope. I mean I have a caring family, amazing friends, but to be 21 and have no future is awful - I mean I want a wife, children and sex of course.

And there is no treatment for venous leakage in sight.

Cheers

#2

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#3

Yeah your situation absolutely stinks. Many of us oh this forum feel like we’ve been poisoned 24/7 and the sides are horrendous. Your situation stinks, but if your main problem is your ED, remember you are very young and studies are hot on the trail.

#4

Hey krx, please don’t give up.

If you need someone to talk to add me on Skype: ukcjm1

#5

Your way too young to consider ending it after such a short amount of time.

#6

Two years is pretty long though? It looks like one of those things you either are or not going to recover.

#7

Don’t give up. I am also from Germany and I am in my 30s. You have time. You are young. Try to get rid of those thoughts.

#8

So you think he should kill himself then?

#9

We all understand how difficult it is to postpone sex and a normal relationship, but although it’s been 3 years, chances are you will still recover. I saw some study that mentionned an average of 40 months to recover, for others, it’s 4-5 years. But even in 4 years from now (total of 7), you’ll be 25 ! School will most likely be hard, but you need to hang in there and focus try to focus your attention on others matters … easier said than done, I know. I think about this about 24/7 myself.

What have you been doing or trying lately ?

#10

No this is wrong. You have no medical proof outside of personal accounts to back this up. And we have members who’ve been suffering for 10+ years, many of the long time ones do not bother to log on here anymore but I speak with several of them. We all deal with the condition as best we can, some can still have sex, even children with the disease. Others can’t or chose not to, since having the disease and a family can be very stressful. The primary marker for PFS being 3adiolg levels stay the same year after year after year for many of us.

What actually occurs is that the body learns adapts to the condition to some extent. The biochemical markers remain the same and no doubt the hormonal imbalances still exist and cause damage but, especially it seems with neurocoginitive side effects, improvements are made.

#11

I tend to agree with you to some extent. Full recoveries appear to be very rare, but most people (if not all) mention that their situation improves as the years go by. I guess we kind of find a way to live with this condition, and as you mention, our bodies try to adapt as they can. But the question of 40 months still remain. Why would people say that they are cured after 40 months (or 4-5 years)? We are in such a mess, that most people would never admit they are cured unless they are 100% sure ! I know for sure that if I had any tiny doubt about a full recovery, I wouldn’t claim I am cured… especially for a “scientific” purpose or research.

Anyways, maybe after 3 or 4 years, if my symptoms remain, I will give up on recovery ! But in the meantime, I still have hope …

#12

I do not believe most of the people here are qualified to assess their own recoveries accurately apart from their day to day experiences. Also not everyone has PFS as badly as others, in fact there is a wide degree of suffering when it comes to PFS, some only lose libido, some get no sexual side effects and only mental. Some get depression so crippling they can’t drag themselves out of the house. Some just feel a little “off”.

#13

Ultimately that choice should be up to him, everyone has their limits. It’s an indescribable devastation.