I can't take this anymore. I just wanna die

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#1

I don’t know what to do, I am desperate, I just want my life back, this feels like a horrible nightmare. I can’t think of anything else all day, I now have anxiety and I feel I am closer to depression each day.

The doctors I went to basically said there’s nothing to be done, that it is a psychological issue, but I know it is not!

I don’t get horny anymore, I don’t have spontaneus erections anymore or any kind that is not by constant stimulation, which quickly fades away once stimulation stops.

Sex is barely even pleasurable, I just keep hoping not to get soft while almost not feeling anything from it.

I am not tall, or muscular, but at least I always performed well in bed and always loved experimenting, but now I don’t even have that. My girlfriend left me recently and I know this curse had a part in it, since when the first symtoms appeared, she thought I was no longer attracted to her, despite what I said.

Now I am single, sexually dysfunctional, anxious, soon-to-be depressed, hopeless, alone and the worst part about all of this, STILL BALDING!

I just wanna die. I’m not even joking.

Sorry about this post, but I feel so hopeless right now, I just needed to let this out…

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#2

Things are terrible and I completely understand, there are times where I’ve felt like I could move on with my life since my mental state improves although sexually I still get pains and no sensation. This hit me 7 months ago and although I’ve improved, many days come by where I feel just as sad as day 1. I’m turning 19 in 3 days and it seems like everyone around me is more excited for my birthday than I am. Still, I keep fighting for those around me.

This disease is not insurmountable, that is what we need to keep in mind. If we all work together we can fix ourselves.

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#3

I know how you feel and I still have days like that. Just remember that you might not feel this bad tomorrow or a month from now. It’s not easy, but you have to try and enjoy what you can out of life and enjoy a good thing each day. Take things easy for a bit and definitely seek help if you need it. I found that CBT can help manage the negative thoughts.Things are going to get better, and we have the results of the two main studies coming very soon and a possible new drug in Sage 217. Hang in there buddy.

#4

It is always important to say this feeling so heavy to bear, so unfair to live and sometimes very difficult to consider hope but it exists … Hear again and again that this condition is psychological is extremely distressing but you know, we we know that it is not so, it is only the words of doctors who do not bother to understand.
The emotions are difficult to control, it is sometimes necessary to leave everything out to see more clearly and to consider a plan of action. There are things to try and time is sometimes an ally that we do not suspect …
Support yourself on others during these difficult times, together we are very much.

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#5

She probably would’ve left you either way and was just making up an excuse if you showed her proof of PFS on the web.

#6

I know, she certainly did not understand or could not understand … Think about the time we need to integrate this condition, the people around us need extra time … That’s sad I I agree.

#7

This is gonna sound insensitive but if she didn’t believe it then she’s not that bright, and if she did believe it but was just making up an excuse to leave then you don’t want to be married/in a relationship with someone like that anyway.

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#8

Has anyone heard from @Depressive_BR?

This isn’t looking good. I stumbled upon this topic, read how bad of a place he was in at the time, and noticed he hasn’t logged back in since a day after his last post over a year ago.

If anyone knows anything about this member please come forward.

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#9

I don’t know how to say this but you just have to be strong and cope with it, things will get better, do things you enjoy, you can pray, take up new hobbies. Things that have helped me are going to the gym, sauna sessions, fasting, eating healthy. For the insomnia you can try melatonin. Height doesn’t matter, don’t think too much about it. It’s going to be okay friend, we’re all in the same boat. If you need anyone to talk to I’m here for you.

#10

me too