What I am trying to say, is that it wasnt really a matter of getting worse after stopping because it wasnt bad while I was on it. Some people had symptoms and then stop and those symptoms become exacerbated (the crash). I had the substance in my body for 9 years and was nothing but muscular, horny, loved life etc. So for me while yes technically “i got worse” but getting worse seems to imply that things were bad while on the drug and then much worse after.
In any event, here is something interesting, and I think we are in the same boat in terms of body appearance since i remeber you also talked about thinning legs, lower arms, and of course sitting in a chair hurts. The one thing Dr. Jacobs got spot on was he diagnosed me with something called pseud-cushings (high cortisol). It isnt cushings (caused by a tumor on the adrenal or thyroid etc) He rulled this out with a dexamethasone supression test. Now what correlates to pseudo-cushings is my appearance, thin skin, loss of libido, impairment of vascular functiong, disruption of the central nervous system and sympathetic nervous systems (here is your s, penis shrniking experience, pelvic pain, neuropathy etc), fatigue, loss of libido, impaired testosterone production, weight gain in the midsection, loss of subcutaneous fat in your lower legs and lower arms (gives it almost an atrophic look), rounder more red face (actually someone today was looking at a picture of me an commented that my face is more round now then a few years ago). So the look we represent is a cushings look or pseudo cushings look.