I don’t think you responded immaturely at all given what you have been through, and given that there is very little help and understanding of this condition. It’s encouraging that you have improved so much; you seemed to have severe muscle wastage, has this improved?
Muscles are pretty normal. My upper body is still smaller than it was. But I would expect that it would take a lot longer to build back alot of muscle.
I believe my sexual health is 90%. I fight urge to masturbate every day. I try to make it three days and im ready to go. Penis is not curved and shriveled looking. Flaccid it looks pretty good. I may not be out of the woods, but much better than just a few months ago.
Your initial reaction is comprehensible. I personally reacted more composed because I did have some bad experiences (eventhought not comparabale) prior to fin and this tempered my character. I have been told my reaction was immature though. Most people do not comprehend what we are/were going through and what an overwhelming number of frustrating elements converged in making us screw up our mind. Many people screw up for far less. The spasmodic reasearch for an answer is the key of our bad reaction, because the medical community didn’t provide us with this answer.
That said, can you gently tell us what did you do to get to this point? thank you!
That’s a very important fact for people to keep in mind. The forum is not an accurate representation of recovery rate. Many people make a post and never return because they eventually got better. I’ve seen recovery stories elsewhere from people who were never on this forum in the first place. Look at 1750’s recovery on the recovery section, for example. He got better within a year but we didn’t know about it until 4ish years later, and only because someone prodded him into posting about it. He could have easily never posted again, like most do, and it would have looked like he never got better. I saw another thread on here linking to a recovery from another forum. That guy could have easily never randomly decided to post on that forum, and the person who linked it here could have easily never found it. I read another post by a guy who was still suffering, but said he was in contact with three people who recovered at 4, 6, and 12 months, none of whom are members here. In another post someone here mentioned a guy that worked out like an animal for two years and got better, again not a member here.
Looking at things this way gives me a lot of hope when I read about someone who took 8 pills and is still fucked years later. I always think “that’s going to be me, I’m screwed for life” but there are many people who got back to 100% or very close, we just may not know about all of them, or even most. Stay strong!
I have not seen a single recovery supported by blood reports.So far there are just claims and maybe "recovery " means different to different people. For example if I can walk and do my daily chores normally or close to normally without getting sore hands and feet I will call it great recovery though I don’t get fully functional physically or sexually. This is why it is very important to see blood reports to setup a standard…
Spstricken- are u really not slowly getting better? In 11 months I had gone from zero sexual thoughts and ejaculations that I couldn’t feel to horny 90% of the time and good feeling orgasms. Less muscle twitching, less dry skin and red face, more zest etc. yes there are mini crashes (usually followed by the highest feelings of recovery) but I bounce back better each time. You are really not getting any of this?
You feeling good again, Fina? I remember you mentioned your recent month of feeling awesome kinda tapered off. You back up again, bro?
Also, congrats on your improvements, scared!
yes honestly I did get better but my problem or rather for every one, recovery is not consistent. Some days I feel very bad, so much so that I get back to the same depressed , fatigued situation and just want to end it. Unfortunately it is not a smooth curve. I don’t know it is kind of cyclic or easily breakable recovery.
Cap- yeah about 2 weeks ago had a mini crash which had just followed my highest up. That up included spontaneous erections, stronger night time erections, high libido. Then bad night of sleep (whatever hormonal cycle causes this), no sexual thoughts, no zest, irritable, slightly hopeless, no spontaneous or nighttime erections. Then each day I have built up again.
Spstriken- but what I was trying to ask you is if you improve after each cycle/recovery. Maybe something gets a little better. I know the mini crashes happen, but do you rebound a little higher each time. Like I said, from months 1-5 couldn’t feel an orgasm, now I feel them all the time. My baseline lows have improved and my ceiling highs seem to be creeping up
I can say yes I am better than before but body is sensitive now and don’t forget I have changed my diet too. This is like Devil goes away and then comes back to grab you.But again I am a lot better than before.
Definitely sounds like it’s only a matter of time until you’re out of the woods (knock on wood). I hope I can say the same soon.
Yea any progress will take time. I cant measure it by how I feel one day to the next. Mood swings, depression still get me. Weird state we are in. I just try to live normally, and peacefully. Keep telling myself everything is okay.
I try to remain off the site, but I enjoy the companionship from guys in the same boat as me. Its comforting to me that Im not alone. And that others here have positive attitudes, and have overcome this.
If you don’t mind me asking, how did you see the recovery of your brain fog and sexual sides progress? Meaning, were there days were you were like OH SHIT better, or was it so slow you thought you weren’t getting better at all most of the time? I ask because I’m trying to track my own progress but I need to know how it progresses for most so I can identify that in myself. Please be as specific as you can. Thank you. (You can PM if you want)
Week to week, the anxiety and stress has gotten better. My ball sack is still shrunk. My dick is shrunk too. But yes progress has been slow. Mentally I feel normal most of the time, unless Im fatigued. Then its hard for me to focus or care about anything.
Wonder how I would do on TRT. Would like my muscular physique back. Ill give it a couple years atleast. Wait for studies to come out.
i would say a good judge of full recovery is if you have the horniness sensation in your stomach when you see a girl and actually are able to get a hard on from this. does this happen for you?
I think that’s different for everyone. I never had that. I would personally feel it in my taint right before getting an erection.
This ordeal has changed me into a better human being. I have re evaluated life. I don’t sweat the small things. I learned I’m not invincible. I listen to my body now. I’m more spiritual. Iearned that I’m not the only person with health issues at a young age. I VALUE HEALTH OVER VANITY. I am compassionate to others who have illness. I’m more grateful for my life and progress my body has made. I’m more patient with my body and don’t expect it to heal overnight. I’ve learned to love and care for myself. I’ve forgiven myself for taking propecia. I now see the value of a working body. I value human life. I’m 5 months sober, which is another issue entirely. I’m actually thankful God has put me through this challenge. I have found that it has given me a chance to grow. Good night, God bless!