I have been there and everyday I think of it but I have a daughter so it wouldn’t be fair to her.it wont be fair to u or your family if u do.try to hold on to hope that the research will come up with something promising.I beat myself up alot too for falling into this trap for such a stupid reason.I try to think as though what if I kill myself and later on they come out with a cure.this whole thing isn’t right or fair.it’s definately the hardest thing to deal with ever.
I’ve had daily headaches and severe fog for almost 9 years. You gotta find it in yourself to take care of yourself by eating well like more organic, unprocessed foods and less sugar. We only live once so go out and contact national news outlets to get more attention. Keep your head up. You don’t want any woman who doesn’t want to be with you when you’re not well. Her loss.
First of all, do what you like. We’re not your family, we’re not even really your friends, we’re just a bunch of guys trying to get through this, just like you. Granted, killing yourself might be pretty helpful, I mean it could bring more attention to the whole issue, but then again it might not. And it’s not like you’d get any benefit; you’d be dead.
Lets be clear about something: Merck is big pharma. These guys are used to pushing people around and having their way: They care about making money, they care about repeat customers, and they care about making their job easier through lobbying. Not to get all “big picture”, but we’ve seen some incredible things happen in 2011. People all over the world who are not friends or family but who do share a common bond have rallied together and have said enough is enough. People are incredible. They’ve stood fast against overwhelming police and military brutality. Overthrown tyrannical regimes. Brought about sweeping policy changes that everyone else assumed would be swept under the rug. Some of them have died doing it, but they died doing what they felt was right. Merck is big and bad, but they’re still just a company, and we are people.
Let me finish this post on a personal note. Suicide hurts. I’ve had two close friends kill themselves almost two years apart, which is a perspective that can only really be obtained that way. You never stop wondering if there was something you could have said, something you could have done to stop it. I have also contemplated suicide very seriously, both before and after my two friends. I know how it starts, I know how it can end, and I’ve seen it end. With what I now know, I will never kill myself (well, maybe accidentally), but that’s me.
Life is a fight. What will you do?