I have fought and been through hell and back. I have cursed God and attempted suicide. I have despaired and given up on life. I have remained sober through all this. I received a call from my brother going through a tough time. He told me how much he looks up to me and how ive been t b rough so much shit. For me to be able to give him advice and be there for him means so much to me. Makes me think that all this fighting and unbelievable circumstances have not been for nothing. I have gained a tremendous amount of strength and shear grit to live. I still have a job and have made some improvements. I have survived that period of 24 7 anxiety and horrer after my crash. I have survived work days where I felt nearly dead and mentally retarded. I have pushed my limits in the gym far more than pre fin. I have meditated and felt serenity. I have been more dedicated to being there for my family and re evaluating my life and its meaning. I have clawed and fought this merciless disease. To hear my little brother say he is proud of me makes all that pain and anguish to stay alive worth it. I believe better days will come my way. I will take it one day at a time. I will survive. I will have bad days and come here to bitch and moan. But I’m still here and I do believe the worst is over. I have sufficient enough reasons to live now. Thought id share some positivity after what seemed like a full year of negative posts. I lost alot this year but im still alive and I will be tomorrow and the next day. I will fight on guys. We all will beat this somehow.
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Nice post!! Great decision, you are already on your way to getting better, chi, Mitch, john Coleman and more are not lying when they say they have improved to almost pre fin if not Prefin. Hang into the little progress here and there and push forward!
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I admire your positivity
Great post. Only way to get through this is to take it day by day.
Agreed, we shouldn’t do anything irrational yet at least. I’m prepared to wait it out for a while (nearly a year now for me), try different methods to feel better at least, before giving up.
Great post, thank you.
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