Can you recommend some books?

Yeah it’s definitely a good point what you say Pete. It’s complicated. Sometimes I think exploring the darker side of life can be a comfort in a world where so many people are fake happy. But I agree it can be dangerous if you are emotionally labile and the hope you hang onto is already fragile, to immerse yourself in something as uncompromisingly bleak as nihilist philosophy. Definitely not something I’d recommend to people on here without that caveat.