If I go awhile without masturbating then my penis starts acting funny (hourglassy, also longer and narrower). I’m afraid to try anything resembling nofap right now.
There have been a couple times where I felt nearly normal and I would beat my meat several times a day like I was training to fight Apollo Creed. Unfortunately, I returned to my post-fin baseline. Part of me wonders if things would be better for me if I hadn’t jerked off so much.