(17) I took a single pill of finasteride 4 months ago and I'm going through hell

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#4

Maybe, but I have many other reasons. I just regret taking fin so much. After looking at that thread with facial changes, I feel like my skin is just aging rapidly. Everyday I keep thinking how I’d feel if I’d never taken it.

I don’t know how to handle this. Mental and sexual issues are one thing. You can keep them to yourself and learn to cope with them and somehow blend into society. Appearance problems like lipoatrophy and rapid hair loss are fucking terrifying, easily the scariest thing I’ve felt in the past 4 months. My skin doesn’t feel bound to my face anymore. I feel as if I can pull it until it tears or forms wrinkles. Its texture is completely fucked and when pressing down on my cheeks, I feel nothing underneath. I imagine looking like Matthew Johnson in less than a year’s time and I’m so scared. I’m now also suspecting gyno, but even that’s preventable and reversible.

I keep thinking that I want to go back in time, afterwards I realize how fucked up I am and want to kill myself. How can this happen or why did I allow it to? I’ve never felt this desperate about any of the other symptoms. I felt as if they’d recover somewhat with time and that I could cope with them. This seems entirely different and the only genuine solution I can think of is suicide.

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#5

Hey man, don’t think about suicide dude, as rough as it is right now, it’ll get better. My skin has taken a huge hit, and my hands look worse than my uncle who is 60… Although my face skin texture is still normal (thank god, please don’t let them take this away from me), my skin is extremely weird, especially when i wash it, feels so fucking different, and stretchy and loose. Worst case scenario, you can get a cosmetic, work on your mental sides, if you’re good mentally, you can easily get out of this.

#6

Do I just order the regular 23andme test?

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#7

@papajohns I can emphasize with the skin and physical changes man, I’ve had many changes to my body since taking the drug 11 months ago. We can’t change the fact that we took the medication. That much is already done. I always think of it in terms of this: if somebody invented a way to travel back in time, we wouldn’t be the only ones fighting to get in front of the line lol. Take a look at my video I posted under “photos of body changes” and let me know if you are facing similar issues with your skin and/or muscles.

Let’s talk if you want.

#8

Yes!

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#9

I find it crazy a kid so young would actually take Propecia

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#10

I find it crazy why these mother fuckers are still selling this rat poison

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#11

Piece of shit doctors that are dumb and don’t know the dangers of it man, this kid should have never been given this shit

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#12

Yeah I took it just twice at 17 and I’m still fucked up from it over a year later. Whoever still claims this poison is harmless needs to be physically castrated tbh.

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#13

How you doing in terms of recovery 1 year later?

#14

I got pfs last November but the crash fucked me up pretty badly so I couldn’t really exercise or start any protocol until around February, which is when I started the cd protocol. I live a pretty normal life nowadays, with some depression, emotional blunting and sexual stuff that comes and goes. I also seem to have some sort of depersonalisation, as in I don’t really “feel” like my old self.

So, I’m doing much, much better but not back to normal, at least yet.

#15

Oh shit, are you cycingTY on swolesourc? I’ve been trying to hear people on the “not feeling themselves” part - It’s a pretty scary experience, and i don’t know how it’ll last. My derealisation has become much better, but still not feeling myself aswell.

#16

Luckily my depression has reduced substantially, still get down once in a while when i acknowledge the things that has happened in terms of skin and dick still feeling funky, and obviously the feeling of not completely being myself, but hopefully we’ll get there man.

#17

I’m currently on my second cycle of androhard and my “zest” for life is pretty much back in full force, which is a strange feeling after not having it for almost a year. I look forward to things in my life again, and it feels great.

Yeah the depersonalisation sucks, but I’ve had moments during my recovery journey where I feel like myself again, but it always fades after a couple days. Maybe this is part of the “ups and downs” that cdnuts talks about.

EDIT: Jesus, is swole source really not allowed here anymore? I tried to write the words swole and source together and it wouldn’t let me post it. Guess all the improvements I’ve had are fake and “pseudo science”.

#18

Dude, that’s great. I hear a few people mention not feeling themselves, but if you’ve had days where you’ve felt like yourself, that’s reassuring. Happy that you’re doing much better, and hope to see you back to baseline soon.

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#19

Can’t open the link though.

#20

Yeah the guys on swole source seem to recover in about 1.5 to 2 years. I’ve only been doing cd’s stuff for 7 months and I’m already much better. I’m feeling optimistic that I’ll eventually recover, but not trying to get my hopes up in case I don’t.

Good luck to you as well bro.

#21

Hey man,

Hope your symptoms are resolving.

Any update on reflex-hyper andro? Has your shedding stopped?

Im dealing with the same thing.

#22

What’s is CD staff, bro?

#23

The only thing that’s gotten better are my way of coping with this and my mental health. For everything else, I’d describe it just as a process of rapid aging. My skin lost a shitton of collagen, turned much looser, more lifeless, basically much older; my body got much hairier everywhere, and what were just tiny hairs when I first posted here are now covering my back (still okay, but I’m sure it’s going to get worse), upper arm, shoulders while the areas where I only had a little hair turned much thicker and denser like my abdomen. A tiny happy trail up to my navel is now turning into a rug. I hadn’t got any new body hair from when I was 14 to 17, and suddenly this happened. Pretty fishy.

But by far the worst issue is my skin. Along with my decreased libido and manageable ED, it all points to the same effects that aging causes. What especially improved my mental health was to acknowledge just how fucked I am, not to pretend it’s not as bad, etc… If I felt that something was off for my age and puberty, then it probably was. Of course I get depressed, quite a bit actually, but it’s done wonders to just be honest with my current state.

But no, I don’t think the shedding has stopped. My hair’s still diffuse thinning, and I believe much worse ever since I took that single pill, maybe the fin even caused it even though my hair was A-ok or maturing before all of this. It’s why I’m considering hopping back on fin again, because going bald is something I definitely won’t be able to cope with.