I’d love to hear the essay.
I recommend anyone to tryout nofap. It definitely helps a ton in feeling better, more secure, grounded and certain.
50 days pfs:
My voice is having a jumping pitch, it’s not going lower, but higher. I have to do my best to keep it low, but whenever I wake its high by default. The larynx is moving higher, which is common for men pre-puberty. It also seems to get smaller.
Getting bloods very soon. Changing my protocol soon as well.
51 days pfs:
Penile shrinkage seem to happen right now. I don’t know if it’s caused by androgen deprivation, or something to do with prolactin or dopamine. It seems that the penis issues that I have have to do with relapsing in nofap.
Also still experience ball ache occasionally. How we’d ever be able to convince ourselves this drug is what we needed in our lives.
EDIT 54 days pfs: Penis shrinkage was temporary
Seems like you respond well to nofap. Atleast you found something that works for you. I never got consistent results from it unfortunately. My penile symptoms just come and go as they please sending me on a constant exhausting emotional rollercoaster.
52 days pfs
I notice that I can’t properly take responsibility, and that I draw too much attention. People treat my as if I’m a child and women don’t have that healthy intimidation with me.
Also people tend to see that I’m unable to do a simple thing, they feel the constant need to help me, judged by their actions.
Also have difficulty with defending what I’m owed.
It’s like a castrated man. A man without a point and without purpose.
Is this common? Did anyone restore/recover from this?
It might be the indirect consequence of your PFS. I mean, it’s not surprising to develop some mental issues being in our unfortunate condition. I do feel like a castrated men sometimes too. But isn’t it true for us to some extent? I just don’t want to stop looking for a way to recover. And I wish you not to give up either.
Is your road rage less than it used to be?
My reply was flagged, but tbh AR overexpression can induce psychological emasculation
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I have experienced a complete personality change and cognitive impairment. I have to reflect on my behavior all the time, which makes me very distressed.I think I’m mentally ill
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That’s how it feels but it’s the drop in neurosteriods. U are not mentally ill I was in a supermarket yesterday I was in an absolutely desperate state. I couldn’t look up, make eye contact, I was extremely nervous for no reason I could feel people looking at me. Years ago I would have had uccumbed to an outburst now I just withdraw . Remember you are NOT mentally ill. Try breathing exercises, calming strategies when in the moment rather than feeding it with distressing thoughts and actions.
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Ryan, when will this end? Our feelings, memories and thoughts are so broken, just like the defective products made by God. I fell too hard. I don’t want to admit defeat, but the condition really makes people desperate. What we lose is not only Dick, but also our soul
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Yes, it’s practically non existent. When people cut me off it doesn’t even bother me. Can’t even be angry about it.
There some resentment, but more because it reflects the way my personality is changing then anything else.
I haven’t tried any presc meds yet, but expectations things will improve are very low.
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same as me
Sucks to hear it. I respond the same as you, Also agree with your advice. Definitely good advice. Meditation experience from years ago helps to zoom out and let go of thoughts and emotions when necessary.
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@baitongWu God knows my friend, its torment around the clock. One thing is for sure it is repairable and that’s why everyone has to hang on. Believe we will see it sooner rather than later. Many get improvements with time for some of us it will take longer. No one knows!!! That is a fact!!!
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Did anyone have success restoring aggression/assertiveness? To what extent? With which protocols?
EDIT:
Slight protocol change:
- Have been taking 6000 iu’s of vitamin D daily for a week. Haven’t noticed significant changes.
Deleted.
57 days pfs:
Added Rhodiola to the protocol. It being an effective adaptogen increasing several important biomarkers, and @BrainDead @Livid171 @Renegade and @moonman1 (if not more people) that have decent results with it.
Current daily protocol:
- Mucuna Pruriens (50% L dopa) 400mg daily
- Rhodiola 500mg (helps with energy)
- N-Acetyl-Cysteine 1000 mg
- L-tyrosine 1500 mg
- Glycine 1g
- Caffeine 500-600mg daily through coffee
- Zinc 12,5mgtablet
- Magnesium glycinate 100mg
- Creatine 5g-10g
- GABA (for headaches and sleep)
- L-theanine (for sleep and anxiety)
- Fishoil 500mg 0-2 times daily
- Raloxifene 60mg
- Citrulline Malate 2:3 9g (vascular function)
- Astragalus 450mg once daily (kidney/mild progesterone antagonist)
EDIT: Added Mucuna Pruriens containing 50% L-dopa. Gives a good energy boost. To soon to conclude it’s effects.
Hey,are you ok now?
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